Bullies suck. I used to be bullied but now have found more confidence. I realised this when I did karate for sometime and was walking home at 3am and two youths decided to try and have some fun. One had a foot long truncheon but I was under ALOT of stress at the time and something in me just snapped and I basically stood in their faces and thought "Bring it on because I'm going to blind you both and leave you here in the dark", real psycho stuff. It all ended well and when they started walking off I called them back to share a cigarette, which on reflection seems weird but felt perfectly natural at the time, stress will do that to you. Since then I gave up karate because I scared myself at what I was capable of but also have never felt afraid of being bullied. I'm now trying to follow Buddhist principles and thus non-violence.

Bully's are cowards, they like to play the world on easy difficulty even though they can play on higher level, they just want little challenge and the gratification of winning. If bullies invested their energy in lifting others up instead of holding them down they would receive much better gratification and the world would be a much better place.

How much paralysis do you have? You mentioned your face and from your operation you have leg stitches as well?

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Your story was interesting and entertaining. I read the whole thing, which is saying a lot. At the end of it I was sad and confused about what it all meant. As a criticism, your writing could use some polish, but I assume English is not your first language so its pretty good from that perspective.

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elemental?

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If you want it to be interesting tell us what makes you happy? What makes the man who can't smile smile?

I don't mean that to be rough, but seriously, we know what has dragged you down, whats lifted you up?

Shuazoid you sound like some type of Post Modern Hero in the making  . 

Actually, not.

The older you get, the more succinct things become.

The young want to make every minor detail into a major event. With experience you can more narrow down to the more important life changing events.

As such, come back in 30 years with your new version - then compare the two. I think you will find that I am right.

Here is my 1 page autobiography, after 54 years...

Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness, is futile.

Whether you do what you think is right for your own comfort, or for that of others - you are ultimately doomed to pain and, at the end, death. Any joy that you can glean might be nice for a short time, but it will end in ashes.

I said that because of what my life has been, so far. (I can't openly smile either, but for a different reason)

I hope I am wrong, though, in what I said.

Life has to have some meaning, and reason. If it is strictly chance and then evolution to a cold death, then it is truly futile for all of us. Nothing we do or contribute has any meaning whatsoever. (From current observations, this universe is ever-increasingly expanding - which means that the universe will die a very cold death.)

For what it's worth, I do like you. Your OP smacked of self pity, but your subsequent posts have shown a certain joy for Life and a good attitude.

Don't feel as sorry for your physical imperfections, they are transitory. Worthy people don't even see them.

Have you noticed my avatar?

What is it? What does it mean?